BELOVED // Thailand

 

Hello there.

 

 

     Lies are a day-to-day thing I deal with. The funny thing is that they have become worse ever since I have been on this trip.  People expect life to be happy go lucky when you are on a mission’s trip, right? You guessed wrong. 

 

 

Lies like…You will never be enough. You are fat. You are not wanted. You are boring. You will never be pursued. You don’t have what it takes. You are not worthy. Let’s be real…the majority of us deal with insecurities. We rather just hide behind them then deal with them or admit that they are not there. We like to paint the picture of perfection & happiness.

 

 

"If God is preparing you to make an impact on this world for His kingdom, chances are He will take you through a season of solitude. This is a season when you learn you can't lean upon anyone but Him for your confidence and when you gain the strength to stand alone even when no one stands with you."

 

Satan finds pure joy in the lies that He throws at us. Naturally, we believe them. We live in them. Satan thinks he is winning. BUT, I say no. I say that I have a God that is BIGGER…One that has already overcome all of the crap that has a hold on this world.

 

God has been speaking to me a lot lately about who I am and what I am capable of…

 

One night at the market…My teammate, Abby, and I saw a leper begging for money. We always seemed to pass him by for no good reason. So we went & sat with him. We started praying over him. All of the Thai people stared and seemed to be in awe. Some smiled…others told us to go home. I kept praying that they would not see us there, instead, see Jesus sitting there with him.  The Holy Spirit felt overwhelmingly present in that place.

 

 Something came over me and I wanted to sing over the man. And may I note that I do not sing in public nor do I have the best voice. My teammate and I started singing…”Your love is deep. Your love is high. Your love is long. You love is wide…Deeper than my view of grace. Higher than this worldly place. Longer than this road I’ve traveled. Wider than the gap you’ve filled.” Each time our voices grew louder. It felt so natural. I just had to say, “Yes, I am willing God.” …& He took it from there.

 

I am only capable through Him. I am only who He created me to be through Him. He is my world. There is no standards to live up to…just simply, to be. 

To be me & nothing less.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

:: I AM ::

 

 

PURSUED

ENOUGH

SATISFIED

BEAUTIFUL

BOLD 

COURAGEOUS

A CONQUEROR

REDEEMED

CREATIVE

LOVED

WORTHY

UNIQUE

CONFIDENT

STRONG

EMPOWERED

VULNERABLE

 

& I believe it. 

 

 

 

It’s not simply about knowing your worth. It’s about having the strength to never accept less.

 

Paul Carrick Brunson 

 

 

Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. It is yours.

 

Ayn Rand

 

God bless

Best,

Andrea